Diary Album 2008-09 page number one

December 14th : Yeah right! so i'm making Tidy Kid Music, god i completely forgot, ok....... Note to self, because you are a producer, and you kinda have accepted the fact that your into pretty much every style of music, you basically have a treat composing with: leaving in the moment, of an idea. So if your idea is this or that today, run with that, document or do that idea, later down the track, when you compile these tracks into your IDrewALine album you can still manipulate each track during mix down, to gently palm them together, into a definite project, with both artistic, unknown and marketable qualities. You do enough thinking, now get on with it dude. . . . . . . . . . . $.

December 12th : It's funny, sometimes your just happy. You realize that nothing in life can really be explained, cause we are here. We are not there. And your just happy when those moments click, and all you really want, is happiness, creativeness, to be released and set free, with no restriction. At the end of the day, restriction is human made, we simply continue learning and breathing.. nothing else, nothing more..

You'd think popular music would have become more diverse by now, with the top of the pop, it feels like its become less of that, more image orientated, and very different category then what we previously were dishing out to the masses. But hey, what the fuck, tis all good, why i bet if your favorite bands were at the top of the charts you would be experiencing problems of excepting them, does popularity hinder your efforts to enjoy and have a good time. Self sabotage to a certain extent.

Today i'm on a train for an hour, the old line i used to take during the uni days. Thought i'd put on some of my familiar late 90's tracks, see if I can trip my self out a bit with the imagery and slight alterations to past memories. Lots more happening, touch more street art, maybe more tags then actual ideas. This train is a lot cleaner. It's got yellow as its main feature color, safety and flashy in the same go. Smoking is prohibited it keeps reminding me. I've never smoked so it's quite a funny reminder to get all the time. Be fun to add a chip into my brain to stop myself from noticing these things, dull down ourselves in certain areas perhaps, well, brain damage is a pretty fun adventure, just need to keep the water and veggie in take to a good standard. Hey she's got nice legs.

Lots of houses here sit on bare land plots, sitting out from the dirt and grass like a model. Some of the really run down ones, with a clean surrounding seem so perfect. I wonder if the owner knows how lucky they are.

Doctor appointment today. Blood test. Just for kicks, see if there be any thing weird in the old pipes. Old? you young funny man. Old comes later to some.

My foot has fallen asleep, pain on it's way, lets move it now. AFX is playing. He he, makes me giggle.

December 11th : Ya ya sliding into a much better head space me thinks. Got a much more relaxed home set up now, i've also got some new thoughts to write down quickly, so like all things, i can look back at em and remember.

Writing simple singular popular always changing songs, longer then short, with an element that is very repetitive, but is then viewed through many many filters. These filters are in the forms of the variety of technique. This is both for myself to play with, and for myself to orchestrate and score parts for other musicians to express upon. The more I visualize these possible tracks, the more the process seems to fall into place. I'm getting very close now, and i'm already in full swing with practicing my scoring skills again and practicing plenty of classical guitar again. In January i have my first musician guests. I'd like to see how they will perceive these basic things. I can't wait to look and learn like a 5year old does again. Its so passive and so so interesting. The element of large variety, of using many techniques on top of a basic repetitive bed, I believe helps the self ageing problem. Not that its a problem, and not spoken from the perception of body only, but that of your ability to stay young in mind and thought and therefore action. Repetition is human made. It's all around us and its easily the focus we choose to advance upon. Basic basic basic basic basic Basic BaSic BBBBA

To illustrate the unknown. Investigative nature. Peoples interpretations. Your guiding hand to make the art that others are to physical create for you. The pointing finger. Child Adult Older. All these things are making up the process of which my album will be formed. and i'm rather happy, happy about all of this. boom boom boom ya you like - hachooooo....

Nov 30th: So just want to keep in touch with basics. Therapy one would say. Keep yourself healthy. The mind works so much better when your healthy, man oh man. Don't get addicted to things that seem really weird and make you fill completely unique, in the way that alludes your position of uniqueness amongst the so called herd. To allow yourself to hate others can be a by product of this, but when you ask yourself, you don't actually want this. Maybe try instead to allow your unique elements such as talents and general characteristics, explorative nature, to form your travels happenings. If you feel good with the surreal, then let the surreal be your language, but don't over push your weird twitches, keep ying and yang in mind. A healthy mind, a balanced line. Baby steps, deep low breaths.

Now back to the album, I'm also working on acoustic tracks, that blur in and out of modulation, such as seen over used in film scores these days. You pick up on it during improvised so called classical guitar playing sessions, perhaps with vocal accompaniment. It creates a unusual but highly stimulating twitch, that you would love to hear over and over again.

The transitions usually are from one feel (un-noticed but enjoyed) into glimpses of recognized popular song within these webs. I'd like to try this in the next few days, a few tracks like this. Without making a rule, i'd like to do this and see how it might feel, as an after thought, to collect these blurs and caught looped transitions, and make these transitions and material into a new song, in popular form. The subject would be my subconscious, to see where it goes and when it stumbles across a section in my memory banks, of emotion/past repetitiveness. This I am very excited about, so yes I will do this. (note to self, past 3 songs i've made were commenced without any direction, and although i kinda dig the sounds, they aren't talking back at all, but that's ok sometimes too, you don't always have to be exploring). On top of this i have a great week to look forward to, with contrasts in work/play/exploration and the good old renovation/sweat-tears. A great overall week to look forward too. Hope for you too.

Nov 21st: I see now where i went astray, hahaha oh man. it be Friday today, and since last time I've made a few new tracks. They were not governed by rules or restrictions. That was a problem for me, not from the generation side of the equation, but of the final result. Had to read over early journals and notes to remember my kid like fascination with un-conditioning my brain so that i could use elements of ghost writing, spirit bending one takers, with then an array of free judgment moves there after. So here's some points for me to keep in mind during the progress.

• Technique of mixing: mix sounds till they talk back in some open ended way, then flick back to the full mix
• For found sounds, find ones that suggest something else, and further communicay
• 2 styles of tracks (process), as in, the first steps of formation: The first is movement based pieces, from free movement visual recordings of myself dancing, moving etc on video. The 2nd is free range vocal recordings, with a pitch tone in the background to help with pitch, but no fixed tempo unless it feels like the track would suit a fixed rate.
• So steps to follow from here are: Find moments when your connecting to your soul and capture those movements or vocal lines. Find players to perform on top or find your own samples or instruments that you would like to put over this one taker.
• Listen to more jazz and classical again
• Ep's : Restricted : short projects : One takers : Rules
• Album's : No Restrictions : long projects : One takers : Other musicians : Rules : Live Rules
• Work on how each track is put together from a rules table, which then provides the full table for live reaction
• Keep in mind to remove conditioning as much as possible, moments of random concrete style are a must.
• 1st take is ghost written, 2nd take already has elements of judgment. By the 3rd take you might even start to have feelings of the need to validate yourself, which by the 4th take your so removed from what was going on during the 1st take. You need to be in flux otherwise for you, there is little point. Unless your having fun with re mixes/collaborations.
• Maybe it's a good time to also research the possible marketing of this album and live show presentation. It's naturally part of the thought process that makes the album tick right?
• Overall goal, how popular can this style become in it's natural format, in terms of, sticking to these outlines and not getting sucked away from the focus of being un-conditioned and in flux both on and of stage. Without comparing to others, can the style just be enjoyed at the end of the day? This would be something.

Nov 2nd: Re mixing Wasps is kinda fun. Yeah so it's going to be detox day soon, 3 weeks on just powder and supplements, yumo's, i'm looking forward to that, for that whole feeling of not being pulled down by your body. Starting the album bit by bit, recorded some demo's and continuing to lay down these demo ideas. It's interesting to see what's going to come, since the last time I composed, I've been through allot of travels, met a lot of new people, and kinda entered a different stage of daily motivation. Placing more emphasis on perception and what is what, has been at times, very difficult to live along side, but once the sounds come flying, i think all that, and more, will be something quite unique to look back at.

Very into leaving huge breaks between composition periods. quite often its around 6 to 9 months. I'd like to make it much smaller next time, but hey, what do i know, maybe its very beneficial to have large gaps in between sound projects. They sound and act differently, and are all motivated by different principles. So yeah, guess i can say that's a positive thingy. I'm hanging out to create a large body of tracks, that present a larger space of imagination, rather then just moments or sudden glimpses of this other environment. I guess, i just cant' wait to get into it, but the door's i'm looking at opening right now, are all kinda blurred and full of metaphoric alternatives that can be off putting. I might just need to grab a bull dozer and take down a whole wall to enter this realm. Force, nah, a surprise, surprise myself? yeah that sounds keen. I'll do that. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! a bee..................................

Oct 30th: Spent the day mixing some trackies for buddies, doing biz stuff, and mastering all the fluffy rabbit remix comp winners, which was fun! i really enjoyed hearing them in the main studio, in the back on the couch, with the subs pouring on in.

Sitting at home now, kinda got that stress bug happening in my tummy, which is just annoying, i'll go sit outside on the balcony instead, that usually gets rid of it. I NEED to start this Album, just a start. I seem to always keep anything i create and release it. For that reason, because the album is so important to me, i'm kinda having a way to hard of a time starting. I need to like trick myself. Just get myself doing something. You know i haven't made a single beat or anything since a few live recordings on the floor (beard clip sound) and then before that, overseas in San Fran with my mate Mark, doing up the fluffy rabbits original. I always have such long periods between projects. It's like i'm waiting to change, or section of moments in life, so that each project kinda goes in its own direction, allows me to truly experiment. Once it finally starts again, i'm usually away and its so so fast. Because i know this about myself, i've improved my home set up a bit, which should aid with pulling in a larger contrast of great hi fi and lo fi sounds. Oh and guess what, I'm going to have the drummer from Mr Bungle on my record, so so so cool, he's visiting my studio in January for a full day of drum tracking, so i'll have heaps of ideas ready for him then, free chart based blasts, and some already worked out tracks i know i shall have by then, anyway, back to trying to start hehe. Laugh Laugh Laugh, it's my savour.

Oct 29th: Yeah ok, so now i've actually started this one hehe, my golly gosh, kinda feel very excited, and also very under stimulated, i think that's normal before actually being inside the flux of it all, so much thinking, and not enough doing, i begin album now...... I'm pretty sure i've worked out what i'm doing, without knowing what i'm doing, but it feels like the right time now, very much so. So all that is left is actually doing it. Well no more damn excuses, i'll go and do it now.

Sep 6th: lovely feeling when you work stuff out in your head, from both a business point of view and a creative point of view. I shall be creating my Box concept album as a stand alone art piece, with 50 visual boxes to be produced, of which 10 will be sent to art galleries. Others will be sold slowly and gently. This means I'm free to make an Album for Tidy Kid, in a reasonable free kinda way. I shall book in some time to begin tracks, of which I will keep some thoughts and ideas about how they will work live. I'm still working of concept sheets with my draw the line style of thinking, but I'll let the creative element flow a bit more naturally, whilst the box project can grow bit by bit. Need to do some push ups....

September 1st to 5th: Sorry forgot to type here.....

A week pre diary start : Just watching the closing ceremony of the Olympic games and have been back from overseas travels for about a week now. Fantastic trip! Fantastic? why do you use such a word, ahhh cause i'm cutting to the chase man, oh ok. Just preparing all my concept sheets and field recordings that i have been working on during my travels through Europe and the states. I'm getting that feeling I always get before starting a new project, the one where your just gaining confidence that it's going to sound great, and now your just waiting to hear what that will be. Can't wait can't wait! jumping up and down as i decided that this movement is actually very good for healthy and endurance. Ahhh back to the Olympics, the commercial is over, un mute TV. P. S. I choose remix's tomorrow, so cool! Around 90 re mixes were sent in, that really kinda shocked me, me likes and, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh another beeeee!......